"i just feel so far apart from myself..."
these past few days i just have been so not myself.
i really dunno why.
i've now become a shadow of what i used to be.
a reflection of myself.
a ghost of the past.
im actually feeling quite depressed now.
mom's screaming e hell out everyday.
trying to make life hell for me.
but then again ur my mom.
so wat can i do.
anyway just to recap my past week.
i had cip on sat.
was kinda ok lah.
having pple like hejia.
tai.
germaine.
wing man.
joanna.
makes ur day less boring.
went to church on sun morning.
met the same new old frens.
went out wit them to town after that.
ate lunch took neoprints and stuff.
went to chomp chomp after that.
with the volleyball ppl and victor.
ate stingray.
sotong.
hokkien mee.
chicken wings.
grass jelly.
went to play pool a while after that.
and got a blasting by my parents for reaching home so late.
mon i went to sentosa wit e volleyball ppl.
tai. shamus. nigel. ave. gwen. germaine. sandra. jessie. sophie. joanna.
had a nice time there.
but i felt something lacking withing myself.
i wun deny that i feel that everything is going haywire now.
i feel so far apart from God.
my walk with Him in such a mess i dun even kno where i am.
everyday i pray and hope that i'll get back on the right path.
and now i see the light.
thank you Jesus.
i hope that in time i wun feel this way.
this period of time has really been a growing period for me.
i've already make a commitment to stop swearing.
and to be an ambassador for Christ.
no more clubbing.
no more drinking.
no more ear piercing.
no more swearing.
no more lying.
no more procrastinating.
the time has come.
im a new person now.
