"don'ttellmewhoishouldbe.don'ttrytotellmewhatsrightforme"
i just really crumbling under my workload.
i cant survive anymore.
why did i even bother to go jc in the first place.
me and my stupid ego.
i dunno.
now the only two things i live for are God and my drums.
we just got kicked out of 'A' division tournament.
the feeling just sucks.
you train endlessly for 1 half yrs but you still get kicked out.
damn i just feel like stop playing volleyball.
now im stuck at home.
sick and all bothered.
at least im feeling much better now.
sometimes i wonder.
life has changed so much.
so much so that i don't even know where im at now.
life seems like it whizzes by in a flash.
maybe im just slow.
maybe i should just quit.
from all the studying and do something i really like.
like playing drums or designing tee shirts or DJ-ing.
all these years of school have really served to tell me one thing.
the education system here just sucks.
exams are emphasised over the quality development of the student.
i thot education was supposed to develop the student to what he/she wants to be.
and not just to be in the useless rat race.
society has taken academic achievement so much in the face that all my ambitions.
such as professional drummer or graphic designer or DJ.
are seen as useless.
unable to compete in the world.
but to me.
the world is God.
so as long as i love God.
and abide in Him.
there's nothing wrong in doing what i like to do.
life here just really is shit man.
knock, knock, knocking on heaven's door.
