blessed christmas one and all!
how's christmas for you? hopefully its not a crap one.
is it me? or is it human behaviour to keep politics within anywhere downplayed?
maybe you all do not know.
or maybe my close friends know.
my family is quite f**ked up.
and by f**ked up its really f**ked up.
more screwed than screwed can be.
well you might think that im overly pessimistic and that a family always sticks together and blah blah blah.
but i invite you to come live in my family for one week.
soon you'll know how it means to feel lonely.
once the epitome of love.
this famile has come to the desolation of despair.
ok. so my mom still loves me.
and i really still appreciate the fact that she cares for me even though on the outside i might complain to whoever is willing to hear about the fact that she's overbearing at times.
but yet. she's my no.1 listener and the only person who is able to withstand my various mood swings.
i really thank God for giving me such a mother like her. and i really do not regret being her son.
and that's where the love stops.
my sis and my dad.
i shall not give a detailed rundown but they are so very much disappointing.
which dad doesn't really care where his son's been?
and which sis only cares about you when she's in a good mood?
i thought that when i grew up. all this would change.
and as often as people do change. the sad fact is that my family has also changed. but towards the worse end of the spectrum.
what used to be a family which goes to church and seeks God.
is now a sliver of what used to be.
its so depressing that i don't even know where to begin.
well well. emo you might say.
but does your family care about you? or at least both your parents?
if one or both of them suddenly jus didn't wanna care about you how would you feel?
or maybe everyone these days are so interested in clubbing/partying/rebelling that family so much so has to take a back seat.
but soon you'll realise that that is not the only thing on earth that's satisfy you.
im not trying to change your mindset.
but i just want you to see how i feel about life today.
and its sad that my dad and my sis are so caught up in the things of the world today that even family ties don't matter much to them anymore.
sad huh.
Chritmas in the past used to be so enjoyable as a kid.
not least the presents.
but it was a time where everyone would show their appreciation to others in the form of cards and presents.
where most of the gifts were a token of appreciation to one another.
but now.
even my extended family is so f**ked up.
you might scold me for being vulgar and crass.
but put yourself in my shoes and soon you would feel the same way as i do now.
falsified feelings and all the hypocrisy.
is that what's supposed to be in a family?
'cause from what i know family and relatives ain't supposed to be like that.
at least when we were small we trusted each other (siblings) with our naivety and that was in my opinion one of the best time i had with my extended family.
maybe in this modern society we've been so caught up in the world that we bring our condescending attitude and our falsified feelings everywhere.
now don't look at me with that queer look and think that im a good two shoes.
but i can frankly tell you that i will never be one and that what i just wrote i do it too.
and i bet the friends that i interact with and the friends that you interact with do the same thing to you too.
hence the existence to politics.
if you feel the same way that i do after reading this good for you.
at least it shows that you have a conscience.
well im no saint.
much less even an angel.
but at least i try to help people as much as i can.
but do people ever appreciate what you do?
do they even remember?
no i don't really think so.
i could tell you 1001 incidents that happened but yet you still wouldnt believe me.
such is the reality and actuality of the mindset that people have today.
doubting the every word that people say.
when girlfriends tell their boyfriends that their outside with their friends.
boyfriends would usually ask where are they. who they are with.
and yada yada yada blah blah blah and all the questions like a policeman interrogating his criminal.
would you like that?
it may seem far fetched today.
but ask any girl or guy and she/he will tell you its true.
no i'm not pissed at anybody but im just upset that there's absolutely no trust in society anymore.
even stone cold has his motto:
trust no one.and even if you did. no one would repay you in kind.
well my Chistmas wish this year would be for people to start being honest and truthful.
each time you talk on the phone/sms/have a coffee break/tau huay break.
spare a thought for the person on the opposite end of the conversation.
that when you are truthful. people will trust you.
and although people may not be honest in return to you.
it takes the effort of one to become a effort of many.
as you celebrate Christmas day.
remember that friends are not always there for you.
politics might happen.
but family will be there.
unless your in my family.
and my other Christmas wish would be for my family to once again acknowledge that we are a family again.
God Bless you and your family.
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